I am back in Kolkata

Hello everyone.

so times rushes by and I am going around the country of beautiful India.
Darjeeling and Gwuahati where really nice. I enjoyed the time of rest and thoughts.
It was cold and I was freezing just during the nights as 3 blankets and a hot water bottle, then I was content and in the morning I was not really tempted to go out of bed any time soon. It was good not having to.
Its good to be back in Kolkata surrounded by my kids and the heat is great too. I am finding out about places where your body is able to sweat. Well definitly learning about myself. hahhaha
Yesterday I went to the streets and I love it again. Playing with the kids on the street can create some akward moments but its been fabulouso... I am getting closer to those little ones and also to the people I am working with. yeah getting settle in and getting into routins. eventhough every day is an adventure. Tomorrow is a team coming yeah I have to host them.... one challenge more....orientation. Good thing I did some of that in Tokyo allready.
I have been learning a lot and think more....its great getting to know Jesus in a deeper way. I pray that my hunger will never stop growing and that I will not be fed up by God. there is so much more to Him than we can see or feel. and this is really encouraging to know.

I belong

all my life I asked myself where do I fit in? where do I belong and now I know.
I belong to HIM. He always loved me, before I was born he poured down on me with his mercy and he prepared the family where I should grew up in. He loved me and cared for me before I was born and trough out my life he did that. He still does and I marvel at Him. By His grace I live. I belong to Him, His culture is mine. In Him my roots are and now I know who I am for I belong to Him. Nothing can separated me from His love, nothing, for He lives in me and I'm in Him. I belong to His Kingdom.
Tears are waiting in my eyes as I write does words down. Knowing that I am loved, wanted and cared for, is all my heart ever wanted to know. This is what God is teaching me.

He calls me

I leave my fathers house to follow you to the end.
I leave my friends, my comfort and all I know behind.

For you call me to be a city on a hill to those who are lost in the darkness.
To be a fountain of spring water to others.

I am you hand that feeds the hungry.
I'm bringing your fragrance to the dirty slums.
I am your arms that embraces the lonely streetgirl.
I'm spreading your hope amongst the working prostitudes.

I will shine for you, so other may find acceptance and purpose.
I will be your light, so others may be captured by your unconditional love.

burn inside of me and mold me into a ordinary radical.

This oh Lord is my prayer!

merry christmas

hohoho all to you I wish a merry christmas and a happy new year!!!!

i had an awesome christmas serving the poorest of the poor in one of mother theresa's homes.... and I love it. I really enjoyed to be with those womans that are handicaped. it was not easy to see and to observe that they have nothing, there just in this home and being cared for and how much it meant to them. So cute and beautiful to see the sister pouring there lives into all those womens. I laught a lot and smiled a lot. I thought that Jesus asked me too. Be my hands, be my feets, be my smile!! it was a good day and I was exausted afterwards. so that was saturday. More and more I am confronted with the poverty.... I mean I have seen it and it takes more then just a few beggars to shock me but as get to know some of the people and talk to them and then you see the dirty street and you know actually someone that lives on in.... its a different story. suddenly the kid as a name.

I have been thinking about what does it mean to be radical for God? and how radical am I ready do be? what is He asking of me? for some reason I have a harder time to be really with my King adn that is not really funny. But I know too that feelings are not so important and that He is still with me for He has promised it! juppiii1

my heart is touched

Today I went to the Motherhouse of the Mission of Charity the House where Mother Theresa lived and served. I was reading some of her statetments and I was moved to tears. This woman was so radical. I wish I would be just a little like her.
I figured that it does not matter what I do but with or for whom I do it.
This is a huge relieve. so it does not matter what you do as long as you do it with Jesus and for Him. I love that. I have been amazed about how God is taking care of me, it is so wonderful to know that He is indeed the good shepherd.

on the road

Hello everyone!
I am in kolkata now. wow amazing, everything when well. even the train was not late at all. and I found the house I am staying at. what a day. God is good, He gave me the peace of mind I needed and I knew that He will lead me to the end, not just half way. isn't that amazing. I love it. God leads all the way. keep that in mind. hahah
so I am here now and my new home is cute and I have a lovely neibourhood. I like it. There are some street-girls coming to eat every meal with us. its cute to have them around and just hanging out with them. I am not in the best form, for I've got a cold but its been good. On the train I was talking to God and I was wondering about a few things. for example I seem just not shocked about the poverty at all, so thats something strange and my heart feels far away. I wonder what am I doing here? whats the objective? whats the point for me to be here? And I don't know. I think I am on the road to my death...haha I mean dying to myself like Paul says in one of his letter... pretty sure its in the new testemant. All my wishes, dreams, visions, just seems to be shaken and I am not sure of what I want in life. I know I want God, his will over my life and thats about what I am sure of. This is strange, a new feeling of being lost somewhere without being it. I know I am not Jesus is a good shepherd and if I am lost well he is not and he will lead me. Wow good revelation!
ok so thats about it. I enjoy being here and I don't know whats coming next or what I will be doing next week. But I am glad to settle in a little and not rushing of like in a few days. I am excited to learn and see what God has! Yes tomorrow is CHURCH and I am looking forward to worship God and be with other christians.

Dehli-Patna-agra-Dehli

Hello!!!

So I am in India and its crazy. I enjoyed the last 2 weeks with this group from switzerland I was with. wow all amazing people. It was an intense time with a lot to think about. God is good, so good.
First of all a weird thing is that I don't feel strange about being in India. it feels like home to me.... strange ne? I did not have the shock of poverty yet, nor a culture shock. I don't know how come but I enjoy the fact that it seems easy for me to adapt.
I met Jossy Chacko the founder of Empart and it is such an inspiration what they are doing. if you have time go an check it out on the web. there theologie about mission and about probably everything is so biblical and awesome. it does challenge the way I think and I love that. what is mission? what does God want? Jesus was never moved by poverty!!! wow. what a brain washing thought. what am I moved by? what is my motivation? to see all those pastor to be in those training zentres and to know that they are going to plant church after church in unreached region of North india is just incredible. not being afraid of getting killed or lose everything. they don't question God and what He is doing. nor do they analyse everything that is written in the bible they just live out what they read. wow. I want this too.
The world here is so different, the mindset is so different, everything is different and still I feel at home. God is good all the time!
Now the group is gone and I am all by myself in Dehli. I don't even know what I will do in the next couple of days. But I am excited. ohoh I got into the Taj Mahal just for the price of the indians....hahha 20 rubis instead of 750 rubis the white ones are paying. Love that fact. it let me feel for once that I belonged to so people group even if it was fake those couple of minutes where awesome for me.
there is so much more to discover here in India but surely in God. I love the way he is, I love that he cares for me, I love that he cares for everyone. I love that I will never be able to discover everything about him here on earth, but that it will take eternity to find out who he is.

Good that's it for now. I am going to find out something new about Dehli and God today! have an great rest of the week!

its time!

Today I am leaving my home to follow God around! I am cho excited. All done packing and this time it was hard, I had to make some really tough decisions. Both sad news. I am not going to take my laptop with me....I am really happy about that one though. I think I am going to enjoy not having internet so much, sad for it wont allow me to communicate as I wish to. But there are a lot of other ways and so I am looking forward to write letters and cards.....:)
other sad news is that I have to leave behind Mira's shoes..... I know there cult but I am taking with me the laces.... so that will be intresting.... shoeslace pictures and there is an other awesome photo-project going on with ibirdy!!!! way smaller and handier to take along on this journey!

yeah I am not nervous now I know that I have to go and I am looking forward to. Can't wait till it starts.

Goodbye for now and next time I write it will be in India from India! sweeeet!

oh wow. It is incredible what God is doing. I love iti!
yesterday I went to our healing chair Outreach. God is good. There were many people so open to what we had to say. They felt the presence of God. It was amazing to see the love of God been poured out in my city.

so in 3 days I am on my way to india. Time goes by so quickly, I can't catch up with it. I am now in the state of packing.... you think you have done it like a 1000 times but still each time again you have to figure out what to take with or leave behind.
my greatest problem is now if I take the shoes with me or not...????? one kg more or less? well its not easy to pack! the trouble of going away!

I am excited about what God is going to do. There are so many different question I am asking myself.
- what should I do next?
- where does God want me?
- what are my giftings?
- what does it mean to be a normal christian?
- be drunk by the Holy Spirit? what is it? how can I be filled with Him?
- how does the Kingdom of God look like?

there are just a few of them.

Tonight I am going to be send out by my church. This is always the big "go" for me, you know 1,2,3 go...... the point where I realise this is it. Now I am leaving, I am going the next step. Wow!

Hello everyone!!!

Its been a long time I know!! so maybe you are wondering what I have been up to lately!
well I spend almost 2 years in Japan staffing DTS's and that was a lot of fun and I learned a lot! God is good and I love the way He is leading me. A year ago I came back home to switzerland and waited to see where God would lead me next.
I loved being at home, my church is awesome and I have some really great friends here. Hanging out with my family is been a real blessing. Two of my sister-in-laws had some more kids.... so I am a 3 times aunt and I am happy to have seen the whole pregnancy and the first months of those 2 little sweet babies! yeah!!!

Now I am getting prepared for the next step. INDIA!! I am excited and finally the waiting is over. After one year of waiting, working and hanging out with friends I am glad that God has opend a door for me to go again into a foreing country!
I know every season has his purpose and so I am grateful for the time I had here. I learn a lot about trusting Him in the last few years but mostly in the last few months I have been learning to rest in Him and to trust Him on a deeper level. You know this whole thing about being rather a Marie... then a Martha..... yeah its been challenging for I love doing things and being busy helps sometimes not to think to much. But well I guess it was about time to learn more to be in God and not to do. I don't think I get the fullness of it yet but step after step I am growing and this is encouraging.

So India. yeah!!! I am not sure what God is up to but I have figure out some of the things or places I am going. First of all I will start with a Organisation called Empart (they are training young christians to do some church planting and then they send them out on a bike and with some bibles and money to go into north India and plant churches there). We will go on a 3 week prayer-journey and interced in different locations and have a bit of a tast of what this organisation is doing there. I will be in a group with people all around the world. It is exciting for me to start this trip in prayer and with a group of people. For after this 3 first weeks I will be on my own. We will be more or less around New Dehli for the prayer-journey and then after that I will be traveling to Calcutta by train. I am sure it will work out somehow. There in Calcutta I will join a missions organisation called Emanuel Ministries Calcutta, they have different project going on from helping prostitutes, street-childrens, homeless, health-care to helping drugadicts. I have there the privilege to go and see, learn and help out in those different things. I am really excited about helping in the slums of calcutta. Well I don't know how long I will be there and what will be after that..... so thats how far I know...... the rest is up to God and I am excited what He will do.

I feel that God is leading me into a deeper intimacy and I am not sure what I should expect but maybe its anyways better not to have expectation and just see what will come and enjoy it. I hope though that I will see more of God for there is so much more to discover. I hoping to learn more about how to run an organisation and to see what is needed. If after that I see it fit to study some more or where to go from there. I hope to find out more about my calling but what I want to see is the beauty of God and learn to be dependent on Him.

Thats about it and I will hopefully keep this blog and you updated!!!