I am back in Kolkata

Hello everyone.

so times rushes by and I am going around the country of beautiful India.
Darjeeling and Gwuahati where really nice. I enjoyed the time of rest and thoughts.
It was cold and I was freezing just during the nights as 3 blankets and a hot water bottle, then I was content and in the morning I was not really tempted to go out of bed any time soon. It was good not having to.
Its good to be back in Kolkata surrounded by my kids and the heat is great too. I am finding out about places where your body is able to sweat. Well definitly learning about myself. hahhaha
Yesterday I went to the streets and I love it again. Playing with the kids on the street can create some akward moments but its been fabulouso... I am getting closer to those little ones and also to the people I am working with. yeah getting settle in and getting into routins. eventhough every day is an adventure. Tomorrow is a team coming yeah I have to host them.... one challenge more....orientation. Good thing I did some of that in Tokyo allready.
I have been learning a lot and think more....its great getting to know Jesus in a deeper way. I pray that my hunger will never stop growing and that I will not be fed up by God. there is so much more to Him than we can see or feel. and this is really encouraging to know.

I belong

all my life I asked myself where do I fit in? where do I belong and now I know.
I belong to HIM. He always loved me, before I was born he poured down on me with his mercy and he prepared the family where I should grew up in. He loved me and cared for me before I was born and trough out my life he did that. He still does and I marvel at Him. By His grace I live. I belong to Him, His culture is mine. In Him my roots are and now I know who I am for I belong to Him. Nothing can separated me from His love, nothing, for He lives in me and I'm in Him. I belong to His Kingdom.
Tears are waiting in my eyes as I write does words down. Knowing that I am loved, wanted and cared for, is all my heart ever wanted to know. This is what God is teaching me.

He calls me

I leave my fathers house to follow you to the end.
I leave my friends, my comfort and all I know behind.

For you call me to be a city on a hill to those who are lost in the darkness.
To be a fountain of spring water to others.

I am you hand that feeds the hungry.
I'm bringing your fragrance to the dirty slums.
I am your arms that embraces the lonely streetgirl.
I'm spreading your hope amongst the working prostitudes.

I will shine for you, so other may find acceptance and purpose.
I will be your light, so others may be captured by your unconditional love.

burn inside of me and mold me into a ordinary radical.

This oh Lord is my prayer!

merry christmas

hohoho all to you I wish a merry christmas and a happy new year!!!!

i had an awesome christmas serving the poorest of the poor in one of mother theresa's homes.... and I love it. I really enjoyed to be with those womans that are handicaped. it was not easy to see and to observe that they have nothing, there just in this home and being cared for and how much it meant to them. So cute and beautiful to see the sister pouring there lives into all those womens. I laught a lot and smiled a lot. I thought that Jesus asked me too. Be my hands, be my feets, be my smile!! it was a good day and I was exausted afterwards. so that was saturday. More and more I am confronted with the poverty.... I mean I have seen it and it takes more then just a few beggars to shock me but as get to know some of the people and talk to them and then you see the dirty street and you know actually someone that lives on in.... its a different story. suddenly the kid as a name.

I have been thinking about what does it mean to be radical for God? and how radical am I ready do be? what is He asking of me? for some reason I have a harder time to be really with my King adn that is not really funny. But I know too that feelings are not so important and that He is still with me for He has promised it! juppiii1

my heart is touched

Today I went to the Motherhouse of the Mission of Charity the House where Mother Theresa lived and served. I was reading some of her statetments and I was moved to tears. This woman was so radical. I wish I would be just a little like her.
I figured that it does not matter what I do but with or for whom I do it.
This is a huge relieve. so it does not matter what you do as long as you do it with Jesus and for Him. I love that. I have been amazed about how God is taking care of me, it is so wonderful to know that He is indeed the good shepherd.

on the road

Hello everyone!
I am in kolkata now. wow amazing, everything when well. even the train was not late at all. and I found the house I am staying at. what a day. God is good, He gave me the peace of mind I needed and I knew that He will lead me to the end, not just half way. isn't that amazing. I love it. God leads all the way. keep that in mind. hahah
so I am here now and my new home is cute and I have a lovely neibourhood. I like it. There are some street-girls coming to eat every meal with us. its cute to have them around and just hanging out with them. I am not in the best form, for I've got a cold but its been good. On the train I was talking to God and I was wondering about a few things. for example I seem just not shocked about the poverty at all, so thats something strange and my heart feels far away. I wonder what am I doing here? whats the objective? whats the point for me to be here? And I don't know. I think I am on the road to my death...haha I mean dying to myself like Paul says in one of his letter... pretty sure its in the new testemant. All my wishes, dreams, visions, just seems to be shaken and I am not sure of what I want in life. I know I want God, his will over my life and thats about what I am sure of. This is strange, a new feeling of being lost somewhere without being it. I know I am not Jesus is a good shepherd and if I am lost well he is not and he will lead me. Wow good revelation!
ok so thats about it. I enjoy being here and I don't know whats coming next or what I will be doing next week. But I am glad to settle in a little and not rushing of like in a few days. I am excited to learn and see what God has! Yes tomorrow is CHURCH and I am looking forward to worship God and be with other christians.

Dehli-Patna-agra-Dehli

Hello!!!

So I am in India and its crazy. I enjoyed the last 2 weeks with this group from switzerland I was with. wow all amazing people. It was an intense time with a lot to think about. God is good, so good.
First of all a weird thing is that I don't feel strange about being in India. it feels like home to me.... strange ne? I did not have the shock of poverty yet, nor a culture shock. I don't know how come but I enjoy the fact that it seems easy for me to adapt.
I met Jossy Chacko the founder of Empart and it is such an inspiration what they are doing. if you have time go an check it out on the web. there theologie about mission and about probably everything is so biblical and awesome. it does challenge the way I think and I love that. what is mission? what does God want? Jesus was never moved by poverty!!! wow. what a brain washing thought. what am I moved by? what is my motivation? to see all those pastor to be in those training zentres and to know that they are going to plant church after church in unreached region of North india is just incredible. not being afraid of getting killed or lose everything. they don't question God and what He is doing. nor do they analyse everything that is written in the bible they just live out what they read. wow. I want this too.
The world here is so different, the mindset is so different, everything is different and still I feel at home. God is good all the time!
Now the group is gone and I am all by myself in Dehli. I don't even know what I will do in the next couple of days. But I am excited. ohoh I got into the Taj Mahal just for the price of the indians....hahha 20 rubis instead of 750 rubis the white ones are paying. Love that fact. it let me feel for once that I belonged to so people group even if it was fake those couple of minutes where awesome for me.
there is so much more to discover here in India but surely in God. I love the way he is, I love that he cares for me, I love that he cares for everyone. I love that I will never be able to discover everything about him here on earth, but that it will take eternity to find out who he is.

Good that's it for now. I am going to find out something new about Dehli and God today! have an great rest of the week!